I always wanted to speak more about my experience in the tech world, as a developer and a manager, and last year I had the opportunity to do so and I felt amazing!Continue reading “My first vodcast”
I am back to work and, after almost 9 months of not using the jargon, it’s so hard to get my brain to think “techie” again and now in every meeting it just look like I am either having a seizure or my screen froze! I am blaming the lockdown here, otherwise I would have joined more in-person meetings at the office and have more informal visits with the team and my friends and I would have talked about something and someone else than just my family and my baby!
She is having a nap on her bed! I just had a hot tea! A HOT TEA!!!
First time she slept through the night! Yes! It does happen! My boobs were huge and leaking as crazy but oh my she slept through! This is awesome! Even if this is the first and only it’s amazing!
Breastfeeding is such a roller coaster, one day baby wants breast and I cry because I want my boobies back, others she wants bottle and I cry because she doesn’t want me anymore!! I want her to grow and be a happy panda but how do you know what is better for your baby?!
I feel that we are very hard on ourselves sometimes because there is a lot of pressure out there on mums, breastfeeding or not, co-sleeping or not, feed to sleep or not… it looks as if there is no way to win in this blame game, it doesn’t matter what you do, you will always be doing something wrong in the eyes of some “expert”… that is why I decided that we are doing what is best for us and that is it! She is growing and is happy and that is all that matters!
Looking for ideas on gifts, Christmas is coming, maybe a birthday? Here is one: Personalise Coasters.Continue reading “Gift Idea: Personalise Coasters”
It is incredible how good it feels to talk with other moms about anything! We met a friend on Monday and we went to a ‘Walk and Talk” at West Ham park yesterday and what a great way to connect and feel heard, even if you are just talking about sleep (or lack of)! Hearing others happiness and struggles gives you a perspective about what is going on with you that is almost problem solving! Definitely is something I am needing. Isabela was so puzzle when she saw a baby for the first time!
Hats off to all moms, specially those stay at home! I don’t know how you do it. We have been back home for a week now and, even though James is working for home, he is doing long hours, I feel so alone at times! Lockdown has made the whole motherhood experience so difficult, I was looking forward to the classes, going out with my baby, meeting other mums. It’s so isolating and depressing not having that support!
I’m trying (key word trying!!) to get Isabela to sleep on her day bed during nap time and it’s oh so difficult! How do you know if you are not permanently damaging your baby by letting her cry to sleep for more than 15 minutes just to pick her up when that doesn’t happen? I cried with her! I don’t know how other parents did it! Really, teach me how! I master the art of getting her to sleep without the boob, now I just need to do the swap from my arms to bed! I keep telling myself we will accomplish this when she is ready and meanwhile I can keep binge watching shows.
It was about time to come back home! There is so much to organise around the house now that we are done with the renovations that we decided to make a move and getting on with the duster!Continue reading “We moved back to London”
It’s so interesting how a bad day of naps becomes a hard time falling asleep for my baby girl! I guess it’s like when we are overtired and our body feels like crumbling and you lay in bed without being able to fall asleep but worse, because she doesn’t understand what or why is happening. My poor child! She is such a great baby though!
I miss my mum. This is her second granddaughter and she still hasn’t enjoyed her smiles and laughs and playing with her. She always says how proud and happy she is seeing me in ny new role as a mummy and I just cannot stop thinking on how much I learned from her and how much I still need to and not having her here it makes it so hard! My mother in law it’s awesome and she helps me and teach me also so much, but it’s not my mum.
Today my husband said to his mother how good a mom he thinks I am to Isabela. It felt so good. As a new mom, you doubt yourself so much everyday, is she happy, is she growing, is she learning, am I stimulating her too much, too little… it’s just an unending amount of things you could be doing wrong and yet, hearing someone else saying you are doing great feels like top of the world!
Isabela is getting more and more restless when breastfeeding. I know there is a lot online about the three month growth spurt and that is normal but it does worries me that she is not eating enough. Although, sometimes when we give her formula she doesn’t eat that much then either. I think this is one of the difficulties of this lockdown, if I were to meet with other moms they would be going through the same and we could support each other. It’s so different meeting in person than sending a WhatsApp message.
As you already know, I have used body basal temperature for over 3 years now as a contraceptive method. This became a bit tricky now that I have a baby and is close to impossible to sleep 5 hours straight, let alone remember to grab the thermometer at the same time every morning before getting out of bed. I found the solution to my trouble: TempdropContinue reading “Non hormonal family planning method and breastfeeding”
She fell asleep with a formula bottle… This is very good progress! Hope this last all night so now I can have a rest and write aaaand she is up… that lasted 45 min!
WE DID IT! We tie the knot! What an amazing day! We could not have asked for more!Continue reading “Our Wedding Day is here!”
Oh, the anxiousness! What to take, what is essential and at which point the midwife will think I am crazy by taking something with me? So much struggle!Continue reading “Packing my hospital bag”
Just because all parties are cancelled and we are in lockdown it does not mean we should not celebrate our almost wedding day!Continue reading “Our Non-Wedding Day is here!”