BILP: Monday, 23 November 2020

I’m trying (key word trying!!) to get Isabela to sleep on her day bed during nap time and it’s oh so difficult! How do you know if you are not permanently damaging your baby by letting her cry to sleep for more than 15 minutes just to pick her up when that doesn’t happen? I cried with her! I don’t know how other parents did it! Really, teach me how! I master the art of getting her to sleep without the boob, now I just need to do the swap from my arms to bed! I keep telling myself we will accomplish this when she is ready and meanwhile I can keep binge watching shows.

BILP: Saturday, 21 November 2020

It’s so interesting how a bad day of naps becomes a hard time falling asleep for my baby girl! I guess it’s like when we are overtired and our body feels like crumbling and you lay in bed without being able to fall asleep but worse, because she doesn’t understand what or why is happening. My poor child! She is such a great baby though!

BILP: Tuesday, 17 November 2020

Today my husband said to his mother how good a mom he thinks I am to Isabela. It felt so good. As a new mom, you doubt yourself so much everyday, is she happy, is she growing, is she learning, am I stimulating her too much, too little… it’s just an unending amount of things you could be doing wrong and yet, hearing someone else saying you are doing great feels like top of the world!

BILP: Sunday, 15 November 2020

Isabela is getting more and more restless when breastfeeding. I know there is a lot online about the three month growth spurt and that is normal but it does worries me that she is not eating enough. Although, sometimes when we give her formula she doesn’t eat that much then either. I think this is one of the difficulties of this lockdown, if I were to meet with other moms they would be going through the same and we could support each other. It’s so different meeting in person than sending a WhatsApp message.